i knew i would love you

i loved you before we ever met and you are even more beautiful than i had imagined. i loved holding and kissing you and i can't wait to see you again and to see how you've grown. everyone around you loves you so much and is so excited that you're finally here. i hope to see you very soon my precious Aulora . . .

Aulora Grace Sullivan

a day to remember

it was the best of times, it was the worst of times. now i know what that means. i drove to work today listening to radio stations replay the 5 year old audio from 9.11.01 as the tragic events in NYC unfolded before the eyes and ears of a nation in shock. i couldn't help but get caught up in similar emotions to the day it was happening. a similar looking morning. clear and sunny. light morning traffic. planning my day in my head. then evil raised it's ugly head from the east river and all hell broke loose in a matter of minutes. death would rain from the sky. we all know how it impacted and changed us collectively and individually forever.

and now 5 years later, only moments after reliving those terror filled moments, the worst of times transforms into the best of times. today we have welcomed life into our family once again. so new and so sudden that her name has yet to adorn her. beautiful and healthy. full of life. destined to be great.


the day will end with a bitter-sweet goodbye to jeremy as he heads back to austin. bitter, because i know we will miss him so much. sweet, because he's going to finish what he started. actually i prefer to think of it as beginning, not finishing. handsome and healthy. full of life. destined to be great. wow.

9.11 . . . what a day.

i wish you were here

september 6, 2002 - we didn't see it coming. it happened so quickly and i have to say, i wasn't ready. one day you were here, the next day you're gone. i can't even remember the last conversation we had. i wish we could talk right now.

i also wish you could see a few things. i wish you could see and hear lori and jeremy play. you would love their music. i wish you could see john david all dressed up and heading off to school in the mornings or be the recipient of one of his 20 questions. i wish you could see julia all dolled up like an angel or see her playing with her kitchen or the doll house. i wish you could see Lori and John as they prepare for your new great grand-daughter.

i wish you could see paula. i wish you could see me. i wish i could see you.

i miss you. why did you leave so soon?

fall brings change . . .

it's saturday september 2nd, and while technically it's still summer, fall is attempting to arrive early. yesterday it was cool (60's) and today it will be even cooler. i love this time of year. i love the early morning brisk air and chilly nights. in a couple of weeks we should begin to see the colorful changes taking place in the trees. this fall will bring other changes too . . .

in 10 days jeremy will be leaving to go back to austin. i have enjoyed him being here this spring and summer. i wish i hadn't let some of his "stuff" bother me. it's not that big of a deal really. i'm going to miss seeing him every day, his music, his humor, his help, and his work stories. i know he misses austin and his friends and he'll enjoy being back. i love that boy of mine.